Sunday, June 20, 2010
just almost... /1:25 PM
I can't express how relieved I am to be actually out in the civilian world right now. Just about 2 days ago I was probably crying my ass out at the thought of being confined for one whole goddamn week just because I didn't manage to pass my IPPT. And yes, if it helps, that failure was a huge blow too.
I had always worked hard to try to achieve what I want, but it never really seemed to pay off very often. I've probably stayed in camp longer than anyone else, simply because I can't escape the fate of two dreadful words -- RT. It sucks to be me I know, but sometimes I wish that my fate would change too. And I've made the effort to try to change it.
I wish someone could understand my pain.
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Saturday, June 5, 2010
army daze /9:09 AM
Woah. It seems like ages since I last updated my blog. It almost died and faded away but at least I'm still making an effort to keep it alive now with whatever civilian time I have left, especially this dreadful week.
I guess army life really makes me appreciate all that I have. The precious civilian time with absolute freedom on what to eat and when to eat (read: very important), what to wear, how to walk (read: no marching in cadence) etc. It really shocks me how much I've taken for granted, and I realized this through the hard way when I was in field camp just the third week of enlistment. Oh yes, and if there was any consolation, we started off from week ZERO. Yes. Zilch, nada, zero... Whatever you call it.
Being outfield isn't exactly the kind of thing you'll ever want to do again, but there isn't much of a choice anyway. Mud everywhere. On your boots. On your uniform. Even on your food. I don't really care anymore.
I never thought I would survive army. But I'm enjoying it right now. All the physical and mental fatigue is just part of growing up...
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