Wednesday, June 24, 2009
change /8:46 AM
The world is changing.
The weather is erratic and extreme too. My family never used to drink carbonated beverages; now we embrace at least one 1.5-litre bottle per day. All the air-conditioners in my house gave up on my family several years back and no one bothered to get ANY of them fixed (I wonder why); now I feel like some pampered kid who needs to be under the huge machine spewing out cool air. I used to be clueless as to what a condom is; now I know alot of 'stuff' both in and out (okay, no innuendos here). I used to be damn intimidated by horror movies; ask anyone now and they'll tell you I'm about the biggest fan of horror movies. Case in point, Final Destination and Harper's Island.
Wow. Kinda unbelievable how much things have changed. It doesn't even feel like 17 years, to be honest. It feels rather weird to look back and see how far you've come, or not. I'm about to take my 'A' Levels and soon, I'll be in the army. Then after 2 years of service, I'll be in university. Hmm. I don't even know if I'm qualified to make that statement. University education really sounds like a privilege to me, with all that entry requirements what not. With the kinda grades I'm getting right now, I'm better off not studying. I've always known that I'm not exactly studying material, yet I've lived in this huge lie for years. But now that I'm in it, there's no way out, especially with the 'A' Levels coming in, what, 5 months? >.<>' that I'll make it? I hope so. No, not 'hope'. I HAVE to do it, don't I? The very minute I was born into this world, I have been living on expectations. Expectations that everyone else who has appeared in this world before me has set. I don't know if that's what life is about, but it seems like it has been the way I've lived my 17 years. Maybe it's better for me this way.
It's not what you skeptics would most probably label as pessimism. I'm being realistic here.
I really hope I can achieve it all in the end. I really hope...
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