Friday, July 10, 2009
discipline /4:26 PM
Crazy stuff. I finally did my Geography CT paper yesterday. Yes, that meant isolating myself at one corner of the room without the
distraction of that huge media box known as the television. I was drenched in sweat at the end of the paper. In both physical and figurative terms. It's got to be one of the hardest geography papers ever. I couldn't have imagined actually doing it during the
CTs itself, though I don't know if missing
the Geography paper was a good thing.
I realized that I could spot questions pretty well after all, but somehow that never really translated into good results anyway. I spotted 3 and a half questions right for Economics CT -- inflation, interest rate,
elasticities of demand and
monopolistic competition. Still, that didn't prove to be much of a relief for me. In fact, I hadn't exactly studied
alot of content IN DETAIL. I don't know if it's something wrong with my studying method, or simply for the fact that I get distracted pretty often AND easily. Still, Economics turned out to be the subject I had the 'most' confidence in, apart from GP.
MATHS WAS HORRIBLE. It wasn't as bad as the promos paper, but still as bad in my terms. I had trouble doing the FIRST PAGE, let alone the rest of the paper. I had a good mind to skip the entire paper altogether, but I couldn't bring myself to just give up on a paper. I reached the end of the paper around halfway through. Not good. That meant I had hell
lotta questions I had no idea how to solve at all. And it really didn't help that my fever came back halfway through the paper. I seem to have an unfortunate affinity with sickness during the exam periods. I took my end-of-year exams in secondary 4 in flu and cough, the Japanese Language Proficiency Test Level 2 (of which I failed) in secondary 4 in high fever. I can't remember the others, but I'm sure I was sick in some way or another. And now this. I had to even miss the rest of
CTs.
If there's one thing I regret in my
JC life, it would be to take H2 Japanese. I totally killed myself when I selected that option during the subject
matriculation. It's one of the stupidest things I've ever done, if not the stupidest. I CANNOT HANDLE JAPANESE AT ALL. Half the time during Japanese lessons, I've no idea what my teacher is uttering at all. I wonder if I'm even listening to him speak Japanese. Almost 6 years and there is still not much progress. I really don't see myself taking the 'A' Levels paper in just a few months, with my shallow
understanding of such a language.
I think I really need some discipline. I've been allowing myself to get distracted by all the things in the world.
Facebook applications, Korean dramas on TV, surfing the net etc. I think I have almost no self-control at times. I don't know. I need to make that change, but somehow it's taking much longer than expected. And it's hard. It's hard to make a change, as easy as it may always sound.
Someone help me a little. I'm about one of the worst students in my school I think. The school might just kick me out sometime. Damn.
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