Monday, August 3, 2009
better in time /5:27 PM
You know how people say about how things will always get better in time? I think that only applies to any form of medical illnesses, because that's the only thing I got better from for this whole period. My confidence level is not really back, my fitness level seems to remain as stagnant as ever no matter how many extra sets of training I do (maybe it's the intensity -- I should increase it), everything is still going as wrong as they can possibly go and I'm running out of time. Time deficit, I would call it.
Thank god for the countless blobs of phlegm I've managed to force myself to cough out. It feels much better, but it's pretty disgusting having to see all the blobs of phlegm coming out of my mouth and thinking about the fact that they've been inside for such a LONG TIME. Agh. Okay, I shall stop about the phlegm now because I'm freaking out.
But shit. I think I passed my flu to my mum. She has been so tired and sneexing her way through the weekend. Damn. I had no intention of passing it to her at all, and I was so afraid that this would happen since she has been keeping close contact with me over the past few days. Taking care of me. Wow. I can't be more grateful than that. Now that she's sick, I will have to take care of her too. I WANT TO.
So much more to study too. I haven't seen the school in its evening glory of lights for a long time, ever since I stopped going for Street I think. I miss it, but I think I'm better off without it for now. It took some time for me to get used to not going for Street, but now I have much more time in my hands. And to blog too haha. But anyway, the point is I have to study. There's so much more of content I have to cover within this short period of time, which is ticking by me as fast as it can go. Agh. >.< I have so much of memorization, understanding and application to go.
I decided to do a countdown yesterday to the number of days I have left before the 'A' Levels. Freaky. The countdown is now into double digits. 97 or 98 more days, if I'm not wrong. Gosh. I really don't know if I can make it in the end. Yet. I don't know. But anyway, I'm still going to work towards good (or better, for that matter) grades. I'm not raising a white flag anytime soon. Not ever I think.
And by the way, assembly resumed this morning. I haven't sung the national anthem or taken the pledge in god-knows-how-long. Not that I want to do it anyway. It has become such a routine that whatever national message they try to drill into us just fades into nothing. Okay, stop. I'm exercising my discipline and self-control here. I need to get back.
97 (or 98) days. I CAN DO IT!
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