Friday, March 5, 2010
state of confusion and panic /10:02 AM
I've been crazy and lost these 2 weeks. Last week I was living my life one day behind, thinking that Monday was Sunday, Tuesday was Monday etc. This entire week I've been living my life one day ahead, thinking Monday was Tuesday, Tuesday was Wednesday etc. My entire calendar is screwed up. And the sweltering heat of the erratic weather now is not helping at all.
I can't believe that in just a few hours, I'll be getting back this slip of paper that will essentially determine how my future is like. I rather live in ignorance. Ignorance is bliss, isn't it? I'm breaking out into cold sweat just thinking about what could possibly happen if, touchwood, I do badly. Rather, what could possibly not happen since bad results will only shut more doors to your future.
Anyway, I finally met up with my long-lost friend of 12 years, Nicholas, yesterday! Talk about damn long... It was great, but I wasn't being myself. How to, when I'm in this horrendous fluster thinking about my results. We visited the soon-to-be-torn-down campus of Montfort Sec and gosh, it was OLD. DAMN OLD. AND EMPTY.
Argh. I'm getting myself all cranked up thinking about my results. And my work as a waiter starts tomorrow. And I still have alot of friends to meet up. And I'm going to be enlisted soon.
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY.
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